Seminar Recap

It was wonderful seeing my friends though I was kind of stuck in my head for part of the trip.

One thing that was really good is that I was more prepared for sore feet this year. Also, going with fewer, but larger bags turned out better as we ended up in the section without the elevator and having to lug things up four flights was not something anyone wanted to do more than needed.

I drank a little much the one night, so I can’t remember all of the conversations with Mansfield Sensei from the UK and he had a lot of wisdom to share. I’m sad about this. A lesson learned for the future.

I took a number of notes on katas that were small changes with large ripple effects in terms of my own understanding.

I’m reading The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari by Robin S. Sharma right now. It talks about how most people spend much of their days ruminating on the same things as the day before. And how being stuck in a loop won’t get you to where you want to go.

At the seminar, we were told to stop settling for limited iaido when we can have so much more. It was a moment when martial arts learning directly applied to life. In the martial arts context, too many are doing things too literally to the book whether or not it actually would work in a real situation.

It now has been wondering how often I am doing things in life just because it is the way others do it. How often am I settling for less without reason to?

Goals Update

WRITING

  • P.A.N. Pilot: Submitted!*
  • Horror Short Story: 433/7,000 words [Due: June 30]
  • Horror Script: Waiting for the next phase.
  • The Page & The Magician: 71,993/80,000 words
  • Puppy Chow Script: Revision not started.
  • The Blood Waitress Club: 24,092/80,000
  • The Mockumentary Script: 10/120 minutes
  • Artos Red Script: 2/120 minutes

*It feels fantastic to have finished something as it has been awhile!

HOME

  • Bathroom Door: 100%*
  • Dishes: 95%
  • Laundry: 80%
  • Entrance: 80%
  • Recycling: 90%
  • Mirrors: 3/7

*The door has been trimmed and hung. It isn’t hanging level and I need to make another alteration at some point, but I’m calling it done for now!

FRENCH

  • Online: 25/30 hours
  • Class: 24/30 hours*
  • Buy French K.I.S.S.

*I got 49/60 on the practice exam, which I hadn’t studied for!

FINANCES

  • Car Loan: 99.97% paid off.
  • OSAP Debt: 3.16% paid off.
  • Mortgage: 14.81% paid off.

FITNESS

  • Yoga – 0/3 (Wed, Fri, Sat)
  • Iaido – 1/2 (Sun, Tue)
  • Walking – 1/7 (Daily)
  • HIIT – 0/2 (Mon, Thu)

MUSIC

  • Piano: Chopsticks
  • Trumpet: ?

R~

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Death

A number of people around me have lost loved ones in recent days, weeks, and months. I never know what to say. It’s a time as a writer when I feel like I, of all people, should have the words. But I don’t. And I don’t think I’m alone.

The most common things to say are, “Sorry for your loss,” or “My condolences.”
I can’t bring myself to type those words and I think it’s because they are not the words in my head. I want to say, “I’ll pray for you and your loved ones,” but I don’t because the vast majority of my friends aren’t religious and I don’t want to inadvertently bring up the possibility that there is no afterlife.
But what’s really in my mind to say most times seems too harsh or uncouth. That is, “This is so f**king sh**ty and there are no words I can offer that can make this okay, but if you need a hug, a shoulder to cry on, or an ear to listen, I’ll be there.”

R~

May Long Weekend 2019

I fibbed. I had time to prepare the bulk of this post ahead of time, so I did.

It’s always difficult for me to pack for trips, but especially this particular one because we stay in dorms and need to bring extra things like blankets, pillows, towels, etc. And I can’t just eat whatever is provided for dinners, so there is an extra bag for me to carry. Also, we do an auction to help cover the cost of it, so more things to carry again.

One year, I packed most stuff into one big bag. There was some luggage tetris with that and I felt bad that we had to rejig everything to fit my bag in. It also happened that the elevator was unavailable, so I had to lug it up many stairs and it was a pain in the behind.

The following year, I went with several smaller bags instead, but that was a bigger headache and I had to have more help to bring my things in than the previous year. I really don’t like inconveniencing others. So much so that I stressed when asking a friend to help me move my stove, so I could get the flooring done. Despite knowing him for 20 years! And he moved the thing like it was made of styrofoam…

Anyway, all this to say that I initially started packing in smaller bags, but switched to the one larger bag for a large chunk of my stuff because it’s generally easier. Then it’s like I sort of combined both methods. I’ll have less to come home with.

And I almost forgot shampoo and conditioner. I ended up packing them in Tylenol bottles because I couldn’t find the bottles I know I had for that purpose. I also couldn’t find the in progress knitting project I wanted to continue, so I started a new one.

Goals Update

WRITING

  • P.A.N. Pilot: 16/44 mins [Due: May 31]
  • Horror Short Story: 360/7,000 words [Due: June 30]
  • Horror Script: Waiting for the next phase.
  • The Page & The Magician: 71,993/80,000 words
  • Puppy Chow Script: Revision not started.
  • The Blood Waitress Club: 24,092/80,000
  • The Mockumentary Script: 10/120 minutes
  • Artos Red Script: 2/120 minutes

I brought a couple of projects in case I feel inspired.

HOME

  • Bathroom Door: 90%
  • Dishes: 95%
  • Laundry: 80%
  • Entrance: 80%
  • Recycling: 90%
  • Mirrors: 3/7

FRENCH

  • Online: 21/30 hours*
  • Class: 21/30 hours
  • Buy French K.I.S.S.

*I caught up!

FINANCES

I will be taking a hit here soon in all likelihood as the government says I owe them money. Two steps forward and one step back. At least there’s still progress?

  • Car Loan: 99.97% paid off.*
  • OSAP Debt: 3.16% paid off.
  • Mortgage: 14.81% paid off.

*I think I’m down to 4 more payments. Maybe less. It’s hard to tell with interest. Perhaps 3.5 more.

FITNESS

  • Yoga – 1/3
  • Iaido – 1/2*
  • Walking – 3/7
  • HIIT – 0/2

*I’ll be doing a lot of this on the weekend. Hopefully, I don’t break myself.

R~

A Break

A long weekend approaches in Canada. Victoria Day Weekend is a holiday in appreciation of Queen Victoria. There are a number of Canadians who feel we should no longer have connections to the British royals, but I suspect there are few who would love to give up this holiday weekend. The royals are celebrating a new addition, and after naming him Archie, I truly hope he is a ginger when he gets older. Not that I love Riverdale. It was good earlier on, but the plot lines have grown ridiculous. I miss the days when there was a strong focus on music. Now it feels as though it is trying to be Pretty Little Liars.

Anyhow, I won’t be posting this weekend as I’ll be deep into martial arts and celebrating. Hopefully, this break will bring me new inspiration to complete my projects and achieve my goals.

Also on the subject of a break, I’m wanting to reduce my personal Facebook use. These days, I’m preferring InstaGram. Yes, I realize they are owned by the same people. But I feel like a platform centered on photos with loved ones and fewer essays is a much more relaxed place to hang out. I also really enjoy watching those painting videos that run through a whole project creation quickly. There is something de-stressing about them for me.

In advance of the weekend, I’ve planted the only pepper seed I had, which I had thought was a Bolivian Rainbow, but the bag said BS… I have no idea what I planted. If it grows, it may be fun. I don’t like my peppers too hot. Chili peppers, jalapeno, and rainbow are about the most I enjoy. I had a rainbow plant before I moved to Ottawa and I was working on grooming it into a bonchi. It’s like a bonsai, but a pepper plant. Anyway, I learned previously to hold off planting anything before the long weekend seminar or I come home to dead things. Hopefully, I come home to a little sprout?

Goals Update

WRITING

  • P.A.N. Pilot: 16/44 mins [Due: May 31]*
  • Horror Short Story: 360/7,000 words [Due: June 30]**
  • Horror Script: Waiting for the next phase.
  • The Page & The Magician: 71,993/80,000 words
  • Puppy Chow Script: Revision not started.
  • The Blood Waitress Club: 24,092/80,000
  • The Mockumentary Script: 10/120 minutes
  • Artos Red Script: 2/120 minutes

*I accidentally figured out my plot for the episode and possibly the first season. Me and my plantsing.
**Happy to discover I have more time for this as the pilot is taking some time…

HOME

  • Bathroom Door: 90%
  • Dishes: 95%
  • Laundry: 80%
  • Entrance: 80%
  • Recycling: 90%
  • Mirrors: 3/7*

*I made some progress here. It’s funny how doing something like cleaning a mirror can help me figure out other issues with my space when I am stuck. I find this whole declutter project is like a stop and go traffic flow. I’ll have periods where I know exactly what to do and I fly through it, then the remaining mess is just this pile of stuff and I’m lost for a bit. I suppose that’s rather like the writing process at times! Anyway, the other mirrors are in my entrance and my bedroom now that the dining room ones are finished. I suspect the entrance mirrors will be next. The last four are closet door sized and shouldn’t be as bad.

FRENCH

  • Online: 20/30 hours*
  • Class: 21/30 hours
  • Buy French K.I.S.S.

*I’ve been doing really good on this lately.

FINANCES

  • Car Loan: 98.2% paid off.
  • OSAP Debt: 1.47% paid off.
  • Mortgage: 14.81% paid off.

FITNESS

  • Yoga – 1/3
  • Iaido – 1/2*
  • Walking – 3/7
  • HIIT – 0/2

*I’ll be doing a lot of this on the weekend. Hopefully, I don’t break myself.

See you next week!

R~

Give Your All

Martial arts today gave me a thought. We were talking about how it’s important to give 100 percent because 90 percent will likely mean you die. And you don’t want to regret not giving that last 10.

Anyway, I got thinking about how people talk about giving 110 percent. Many say that’s not mathematically possible. But what if most what people believe is their 100 percent is actually their 90 percent?

Where did this come from? Well, on a number of occasions, I thought I couldn’t give more until I had to. Playing roller derby was one of those things that pushed me harder than I ever knew my body could physically go at the time. Divorce, miscarriage, and job loss are some of the things that pushed me far beyond what I thought I could handle emotionally.

Translating that to my writing, I have no idea where I will get to. I don’t even know if the sky is the limit. Maybe the only limit is myself.

Anyway, some things have changed lately, so some of my goals are changing. My back and neck have been giving me trouble and the only thing that seems to help them is yoga, so I’m now doing some yoga several times a week.

Goals Update

WRITING

  • P.A.N. Pilot: 13/44 mins [Due: May 31]
  • Horror Short Story: 360/7,000 words [Due: June
  • Horror Script: Waiting for the next phase.
  • The Page & The Magician: 71,993/80,000 words
  • Puppy Chow Script: Revision not started.
  • The Blood Waitress Club: 24,092/80,000
  • The Mockumentary Script: 10/120 mins
  • Artos Red Script: 2/120 mins

HOME

  • Bathroom Door: 90%*
  • Dishes: 90%
  • Laundry: 70%
  • Entrance: 75%
  • Recycling: 90%
  • Mirrors: 2/7

*To be finished after the long weekend. I have been stalling partly because of my back, but also because I was worried I wouldn’t be able to cut it in a straight line. Recently, I realized I could clamp my large metal level to it and use it as a guide. And maybe if I put the line on painters tape, I won’t disturb my paint job. Then I’ll just have to seal the top of it, reattach the wheels and hang it.

FRENCH

  • Online: 14/30 hours
  • Class: 18/30 hours
  • Buy French K.I.S.S.

FINANCES

  • Car Loan: 98.2% paid off.
  • OSAP Debt: 1.47% paid off.
  • Mortgage: 14.81% paid off.

FITNESS

  • Yoga – 2/3
  • Iaido – 1/2
  • Walking – 1/7
  • HIIT – 0/2

R~

Feeling A Little Broken

My plans change frequently lately. But with good reason. I’ve been coming across a number of intriguing opportunities that are more time sensitive than others. Some are too good not to attempt. There are some contests in there and several job applications.

I recently gave an interview, which is also very exciting. An old high school friend had questions about being a writer. Mostly my advice was that having a day job is something many of us need for a long time because it takes a while to get established. I also recommended getting to conferences like Ad Astra to meet other people and learn. There were a few other things specific to the questions he asked, but those couple of things are an excellent place for anyone to start.

I woke up with a sore neck and seasonal allergies. Fun stuff! As such, I’ve been moving really slowly on my home goals. I could do some light things like dishes and move cardboard out of my unit, but not much else.

Goals Update

Writing

  • Horror Script: Waiting for the next phase.
  • Horror Short Story: 360/7,000 words
  • The Page & The Magician: 71,993/80,000 words
  • Puppy Chow Script: Revision not started.
  • The Blood Waitress Club: 24,092/80,000
  • The Mockumentary Script: 10/120 minutes
  • Artos Red Script: 2/120 minutes
  • P.A.N. Pilot: 9/44*

*I’m now working on this because the opportunity is too good to pass up. I swear I will finish something soon!

Home

  • Bathroom Door: 90%
  • Dishes: 90%
  • Laundry: 70%
  • Entrance: 75%
  • Recycling: 90%
  • Mirrors: 2/7*

*There are 3 floor to ceiling mirrors and two sets of closet door mirrors. Remember when I said I would leave the dining room for now? Well, I couldn’t. I figured out what to do with it and reorganized it. This meant washing mirrors before putting things in their new places. I would have done the third one, but I’ve been fighting with my neck. A sign it’s time to change pillows.

French

  • Online: 11.5/30 hours*
  • Class: 15/30 hours**

*Making some progress here now.
**Half-way!

Finances

  • Job: Revised CV*
  • Car Loan: 98.2% paid off.
  • OSAP Debt: 1.47% paid off.
  • Mortgage: 14.81% paid off.

*And revised again as a recruiter called me about an interesting position. The job fair went well and I was able to give out several resumes. I also had a really good conversation that helped me understand some things. I know I’m being vague. Eventually, maybe I won’t be 😉 I also met with a new job coach. Time will tell on how that is going to be.

Fitness

  • Iaido: 0/2
  • Walking: 0/7
  • HIIT: 0/3

I have been sucking bad on the fitness front, but I’m also feeling broken. My back hurts today. Hopefully, it will be better in time for the May Iaido Seminar coming up soon.

R~

Leaping Forward

The beginning of this week was about tackling the clutter. There was a pile in the middle of my living room floor on Monday, which has since been taken care of. Also on Monday, I made huge progress on my desk area. After rearranging the room, I basically have a little writing nook in my living room now and I love it!

It felt really Canadian to use “sorry” to obscure the picture of my friend’s son otherwise known as my young buddy.

I also dusted off an old desk top I had under my bed and was able to repurpose it under my TV to hold some cards, CDs, and my turntable care items. My home is definitely getting cleaned up, though I have so much more I want to get to. Much has gravitated into my dining room, but I am fixing the rest first. There are also some network cabling issues to work out, but it’s almost there. And I have a little stand for my tablet, which makes my desk more ergonomic.

I even rearranged my CV and was able to reduce it by 3 pages. There might be further work to do here, but at least I tackled it. Today, I made a number of copies at my job coach’s office in prep for the job fair this weekend. I’ve also been chasing other film related job leads.

Another thing I started was digitizing the mountain of writing notes I have. There’s a large, half full, Rubbermaid tub in my bedroom. I have a smaller bin in the living room I’m using to chunk it up. My cables also have a new home where my video games were living and my games are now with my movies. My consoles and other electronics are also more together now. My music stand has a new home too where it is out of the way, but always accessible.

One of the things I found while decluttering on Monday was a planner I had gotten a while ago, but didn’t make much use of. It’s meant to be a family planner, but I’m using it to track my goals in their own streams. I like that it has a meal lane as that is something I want to improve on. It has a lovely space now opposite my calendar.

I found a number of interesting low cost courses that I signed up for. They are all on-demand and fit with my goals.

Goals Update

Writing

  • Horror Script: Waiting for the next phase.
  • Horror Short Story: 360/7,000 words
  • The Page & The Magician: 71,993/80,000 words
  • Puppy Chow Script: Revision not started.
  • The Blood Waitress Club: 24,092/80,000
  • The Mockumentary Script: 10/120 minutes
  • Artos Red Script: 2/120 minutes*

*One of my groups started another month of writing and I decided to start a new project for it because it is the one that is talking to me most though I’ll likely work on my others as well. The aim is 3 pages a day, but other things like reading, researching, etc, count.

Home

  • Bathroom Door: 90%
  • Dishes: 90%
  • Laundry: 70%
  • Entrance: 70%
  • Recycling: 33%*

*I tackled the cardboard.

French

  • Online: 6.25/30 hours*
  • Class: 9/30 hours

*I’m now in the second section of level 1. It’s weird though. Some spots were supposed to take much longer. One lesson said an hour, but it said I took 20 minutes… This is why the hour count is rather crappy. I’m likely going to do far more than the level one work to get the 30 hours. On the upside, it may help me to advance faster?

Finances

  • Job: Revised CV*
  • Car Loan: 98.2% paid off.
  • OSAP Debt: 1.47% paid off.
  • Mortgage: 14.81% paid off.

*Got resumes printed and have a few other things going on.

Fitness*

  • Iaido: 0/2
  • Walking: 2/7
  • HIIT: 0/3

*I’ve partly been struggling in this section because of when reporting happens vs when I do these things. I usually think of weeks as starting on Sunday like the calendar, but ROW80 has them end on Sunday lol! I’m going to try and resync this area accordingly.

Tonight, I’m taking a break from the house stuff and seeing Avengers Endgame with a friend. I expect tomorrow I’ll likely be back at tackling the clutter and job stuff.

R~