Theatrical Tuesday – Chin Up

This post is very helpful right now.

If you are the praying type, please pray for those who feel the need to hurt others to find their way to healing the damaged parts of themselves.

R~

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Make-It Monday – Holding Back

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This week’s theme is holding back.

I suppose there are some things I need to hold back on in order to make it to the finish line. My last class is on April 26th.

I need to bite my tongue. There are so many things I would like to say to someone, because they have some things extremely wrong, but sometimes we must never speak to someone again. And sometimes there are people one spends months trying to work with only to be repeatedly disrespected at every juncture.

I hate drama and b.s.

Otherwise, I’m trying to get as much done as possible while dealing with fire testing in my building. I’ve been cleaning. A lot.

Oh, I had a wonderful coffee date recently! It was so comfortable and the conversation was great. I’m looking forward to seeing him again 🙂

Here is what I have left to do to graduate and their [due dates]:

  1. Complete my portfolio. [Thursday]
  2. Fix up this website. Yes, some tweaks will be made. You’ll see my poetry tabs and some others moved to a new Portfolio tab. [Thursday]
  3. A quiz. [Thursday]
  4. A presentation about a web series. [Thursday]
  5. The second draft of my feature film. [Saturday]
  6. Revise my one act play. [23rd]
  7. A pitch document for a TV show. This is mostly done. [24th]
  8. Update my career plan. [26th]
  9. Supposedly an exam, though that one hasn’t talked about it. [26th]

And ever since we had the workshop on writing for games, all I want to do is play videogames.

I think I know what I’ll be doing on the 27th…

If you don’t hear from me much this week, it’s because I’m drowning in the above homework or perhaps I’ve had so much caffeine to survive that I can’t sit still long enough to drop a line.

R~

Frisky Fraturday – Entropy, Sex, and Music

music1So… I forgot to post yesterday. Sorry for that. I haven’t been sleeping well, or eating well, and there’s tons of homework to get done in these last two weeks. There has been some extra stress in my life recently that I’m not going to get into. Suffice it to say someone wasn’t who I thought they were. And someone else was exactly who I feared they were.

I also have the extra stress of rapidly house cleaning before Monday because they’re doing fire inspections. Why they can’t wait until May, so people don’t have to put their tax papers away only to dig them out again to finish their taxes, I don’t know.

But as my home gets cleaner and as I get an assignment done, I feel a little better.

Entropy and sex. Well, I could go down the rabbit hole of ejaculate breaking apart into individual sperms only to come together again in an egg and create life. That could be seen as entropy, I suppose.

I think it works better as a dating analogy though. Sometimes something busts apart and it can feel like everything is awful, but then it puts you in the position to meet someone that gets you. Someone you actually feel comfortable talking to. And maybe something new and good will be created from it.

Entropy and music? Hmmm, well, we largely learned songs in pieces, put them together, and broke them apart again at troublesome points to get better. I wish I could say I was diligent at learning songs that way today, but playing is more of a soulful stress-relieving thing rather than a thing I see myself doing for a living. It also helps me through writer’s block. Writing songs though? Yeah, I plan to do that.

But I realized tonight that half the songs my last guitar teacher gave us are not my kind of music and I think that’s why I rarely play more than about five of the ones in my book. I should remedy that soon. I love hearing others play things like House of the Rising Sun, but I don’t enjoy trying to play it. Give me some Evanescence, Of Monsters and Men, Blink 182, and maybe some Nine Inch Nails or Manson and I’ll probably be more excited about it.

Anyway, off for food, more cleaning, maybe more homework or work for a client. I have some new plans for my feature film, so I may put some TV on for research purposes.

R~

 

Thoughtful Thursday – Cleaning

thoughtfulI don’t know about you, but my home is a place where one can see entropy in action. Things seem to migrate all over. I’m not sure if it’s slightly worse for me because I’m the daughter of a hoarder and I’ve rarely witnessed my mom cleaning anything. It’s definitely the thing I struggle with the most.

I think it’s also partly my current position as a student swamped in homework assignments combined with about 3 hours lost daily to commuting.

Somehow, though, it’s easier to push to get a lot cleaned up in a short time when there’s someone holding a metaphorical gun on me. My condo corp is doing fire testing next week and needs access to my unit. As it’s been in quite the state between travel, a hectic schedule, commuting, homework, and the odd social event, I’m trying to get it as clean as possible before Monday.

The downside is that I have a lot of other things I could be doing, like the final assignments I need to be done in order to graduate.

The upside? My place will be clean, which is something I’ve been wanting.

This will reset my home, so entropy can start all over again.

R~

Warrior Wednesday – Beginner’s Mind

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One of the concepts we bandy about at martial arts is The Beginner’s Mind. Basically, the idea is to approach something as if you are a white belt and know nothing.

I use it often. At school or while in some other learning environment like a seminar, even if I have learned much of the content before, I clear my mind and pretend I know very little. By doing this, I can listen and absorb things because I don’t dismiss anything. Now, I don’t completely ignore what I’ve learned before. I use that previous knowledge to help me fill in a gap. For example, we were discussing how to get a play script sold and the way the teacher was explaining things seemed a bit convoluted to me. That’s when I used what I knew from film and TV classes to figure out that while in TV and film you need to find a willing producer, with plays, you need to be the producer. To be a producer in TV and film, you need to go to film school. Not so for plays.

I also use this technique when going out on a date because I’d rather assume I know nothing about someone than that I know everything. I may not remember everything discussed, but I’ll know far more than I would otherwise.

It’s helpful with a new martial art because while you’ll know some aspects due to the body only having a limited amount of ways that it can move, the devil can be in the details. Coming to jodo after karate was difficult before I knew about beginner’s mind because I spent so much time in karate trying to square up my stances only to find I need to have an angled stance in jodo. Iaido is more square, but not low, wide, and deep like karate. I actually had to stop doing jodo altogether for awhile because I couldn’t leave my learning from karate behind to allow myself to take on something new.

Beginner’s mind is something I also use to connect with people who are in a different lifestyle or stage of life than I am. It lets me avoid assuming things about people in my classes like their ability to be successful is really only limited by their will to persevere and has nothing at all to do with their age or current level of writing ability.

Now, I only recently came to this last bit about those younger than me. I have been rather stupid lately in regards to things like the Tide Pod epidemic. I’m sorry for that and I’m going to continue to try and be a better person.

One of the things that has made me realize that was the recent trip to Toronto to pitch our projects. At the home of Orphan Black, the woman we met with had us each say a bit about ourselves. I really enjoyed learning more about my younger classmates as many of them have had such a variety of life experiences. Many have traveled more than I have. Many have lived through things like the loss of a parent. I thankfully have not had that experience though I’ve lost many people in my life. The point is that age is mostly just a number. I do think there is a balance between assuming someone younger is inferior in any way and in giving them free reign to change national policies, but that’s not to say they have nothing valuable to contribute to a discussion. It’s more that they don’t know what they don’t know yet.

I haven’t been able to do this yet with music, but maybe someday. Language learning is another area this may help with, but I’m not there with that either.

I feel that The Beginner’s Mind fits quite well with entropy as one must basically blow up all they know and rearrange the pieces to either expand what was already known or to capture what one knew little about previously.

R~

Theatrical Tuesday – Entropy

face-66317_640I first learned about entropy from either Blue Planet or Planet Earth. The concept fascinated me immediately.

The idea that things break apart in order to create something better with the pieces later is highly relevant in my life right now.

I think that writers often have to be willing to blow up our work and reassemble it differently.

This is challenging. Probably one of the most challenging things we do. I think this is pretty much how to take draft one and make draft two. You need to be willing to rearrange something so differently that it barely resembles what it was before.

I don’t know where it’s all heading yet, but it’s definitely an interesting time.

R~

Make-It Monday – My Murky Yet Hopeful Future

bitmoji_goalsWhat an experience visiting and pitching to places was! We went to ten places that are key in media in all of Canada. When we first got there, I felt like I definitely knew what my path was going to be. I was planning on getting a job near my house and then write during the hours I wasn’t working. While there, I felt I really wanted to be part of this thing that is media in Canada. I was a little down discovering that I didn’t get that job because it makes me stressed out about money again, but I think it’s ultimately a good thing for my future.

One of the things I learned is how useful I could be as someone with a background in project management. I think that is the right path for me to take. I could end up an Assistant Director or someone who manages programming schedules or nearly anything because time management and getting talent to deliver things on time is one of the areas that is a constant struggle.

But my work life is a little like sand right now. A strong wind can blow a structure apart only to reform elsewhere. Entropy is this week’s theme and it’s quite a fitting one given that I’ve quite a bit to figure out.

I sent in a short film script to the broadcast students, sent a short script to a new contact, did script coverage for a local film maker, and learned my feature could really get made if I can find a producer that would be interested in it. Good things are happening though the future isn’t clear yet.

I’ve also made progress on editing my novel. I’m going to be changing some things based on what I learned about TV. I may even get in touch with one of the companies I really liked and could see my stories being told through. I have some further questions about something they said.

So I’m going to keep working hard and making contacts that could help me get somewhere that makes sense for me in the industry.

And that’s how life’s river flows today.
R~