As my home gets cleaner, I see more mess.
This is true of my Iaido as well. The more I work to refine my technique, the more I can spot problems in it.
I think it’s a sign of maturity. The longer I practice, the more I am exposed to people above me that do it closer to the ideal. I said ideal because I haven’t met anyone who thinks they do it “right”. Indeed, even 8th Dan senseis have stated they still struggle with their grip or some other thing.
This is true of life as well. This year has opened my eyes to much. I no longer look upon the world with the rose-coloured glasses of a child. I no longer see issues as black-and-white, but in scales of grey. To some degree, this makes me sad, but mostly I’m happy that I know more today than I ever have before.
What that knowledge tells me is that I still have so much to learn in all facets of life.
I’m working hard to improve my writing skills. This fall, I’ll be learning to write in some new structures and for different audiences. I’m looking forward to it. Even more so after diligently reading the descriptions for each of my courses. I should come out of it with a portfolio and hopefully someone will buy my scripts.
This change may make it hard to get to one of my practices, especially in winter, but I’m going to try my best to make it happen. I’m unsure if I want to attempt gradings this year. I suppose it will depend on if I feel ready and if I have the money for them. There are a couple of seminars before then next grading opportunities come that should help me know if I’m ready. Right now, I don’t think so, but who knows where I’ll be in a couple of months?
Guid cheerio the nou,