I’ve had to spend a lot of time in the last six months thinking about where I am and where I want to be. What I’ve realized is that I have hated nearly every job I’ve had. Traditional office work fills me with dread. There is nothing quite so devoid of purpose to me as making documents no one reads. I can create an excellent project plan and management will ignore it then wonder what happened to their project budget. Every IT job I’ve had has included some jackass who won’t listen to what I have to say simply because I have boobs and look young for my age. I don’t have a problem having to prove myself. I have a problem having to prove myself for a line of work I have zero passion for anymore. One cannot hate work as much as I have and not be filled with stress, anxiety, dread, and depression without it taking a toll on one’s health.
So what’s next for me? I’ve thinking about the past and what I miss doing for work. I began looking at college programs in search of something artistic and technical. I’ve applied for a 1-year program at Algonquin College. It includes a field placement, networking opportunities, and will make use of all my skills. So I’ve taken a large step away from that old life that never felt right for me.
Hopefully, I can figure out how to pay my expenses while doing this one year of school. It’s not going to be easy, but I truly think it will be worth it. I’m looking forward to a future where I enjoy my work again.
That is if my application is successful. Some of my transcripts have went through. I’m waiting on two others to be received.
I’m really unsure how to cover my condo, car loan, utilities, food, and school unless I can get some scholarships, OSAP, work part-time, and budget tightly. Maybe I could get a work-study position, so that I can work at the school in between classes. There’s so much yet to figure out on the financial side.
You’re probably wondering what the program is. Well, I’m not going to tell you until it becomes a reality.
What I will say is that I feel great about this decision.
I hope you have a wonderful weekend! I’ll be spending mine in Montreal where I’ll be swinging swords with friends. I’m also looking forward to having a day off of French class as my province celebrates Family Day on Monday.